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Am i really afraid of letting what i’m insecure about happen. I can’t help it but feel that it’s getting harder to stop & i’m not stopping yet. i don’t think it’s right & i don’t want to be foolish. if life is about accumulating amazing stories that serves well beyond time or to show for, we’re gonna need some scars & bruises right? no pain no gain? isn’t that what everyone’s saying. i hate how everything is so ironic & how i sound like an oxymoron here trying to decipher this morbid feeling stirring up inside of me, it’s reductive. makes me wonder.

i like this song, it’s so full of emotions. people are probably going to listen to it thinking i’m another one of those random emo, but i’m perfectly alright. it’s a pretty damn awesome song. 

it’s called karma.

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Oh yes.

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i love my dad & no words can describe how much i do. 

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“Happiness is the consequence of personal effort. You fight for it, strive for it, insist upon it, and sometimes even travel around the world looking for it. You have to participate relentlessly in the manifestations of your own blessings. And once you have achieved a state of happiness, you must never become lax about maintaining it. You must make a mighty effort to keep swimming upward into that happiness forever, to stay afloat on top of it.”

- Elizabeth Gilbert 

Suddenly i realised… The love we take into our hearts as we live our lives is going to come from many different people. it’s so stereo typical to think that there’s only ONE person whose love would be everything, but no. There would be people whose love feeds your mind and people whose love feeds your humor, and people whose love are what you can count on at any time & any day….. 

i’m so nostalgic tonight. thinking of all the friendships and people with big roles in my life. i miss everything, i miss my secondary school life. we may never be as free as we are now & we’re all on different paths. but one thing’s for sure, friends are forever. through the good, the bad & the ugly, some days stay gold forever. flashbacks of moments in my mind revived tonight play themselves with so much retrospect, it’s like falling back into history. i can’t explain the way i feel. i’m just so thankful for friends, for best friends, family & the love they’ve given me, or the happiest moments in life, for giving me so much to remember.

:’)

the earth without ‘art’ is just ‘eh’.

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so hard not to.

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“ I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes.

Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things, trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world. You’re doing things you’ve never done before, and more importantly, you’re Doing Something.

So that’s my wish for you, and all of us, and my Towish for myself. Make New Mistakes. Make glorious, amazing mistakes. Make mistakes nobody’s ever made before. Don’t freeze, don’t stop, don’t worry that it isn’t good enough, or it isn’t perfect, whatever it is: art, or love, or work or family or life.

Whatever it is you’re scared of doing, Do it.

Make your mistakes, next year and forever.”

 - neil gaiman

Tomorrow’s going to be the day we get our results. it feels like… it’s finally the end of my AHS journey. between feeling the sense of accomplishment or disappointment, i reaaaally hope for things to fall just at where they should be. Well, my hopes are all up for this continuation of serendipity. But i know it wouldn’t be that easy & i guess i can’t always be that spoiled child of fortune-getting lucky all the time. I’ll embrace whatever, all these uncertainty. my greatest obstacle would probably be staying strong & resilient against the odds. but being strong despite setbacks is a resolution i plan to uphold now & forever, come what may. it’s the only way to live, not just survive.

I know i’ll probably be reading this post a week from now, a month, a year later or maybe after 10 years, i don’t know. i just hope that i have no regrets doing i’m doing then, being wherever i may be. i want to be able to smile, not tear when i’m looking back. i just know i have to do what i got to do & i don’t think it’s ever too late for change. when there’s a will, there’s always a way. My ultimate goal is faraway still i knowthatverywellmyself, but i really do hope my little goals & accomplishments from right now would eventually lead me there someday.

I won’t ever stop believing, whether tomorrow marks the end of this serendipity or not.

Goodnight.

My first ever count down party celebrating the start of 2012 at scape. this year’s gonna be the best year yet.

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